Falling In Love

When you fall in love for the first time, it’s like magic. One day you’re just looking at this person who may or may not be your future and then out of nowhere…BAM, you’ve fallen so hard and you have no idea how. And, what’s even more beautiful is that you can’t bring yourself to care. You’re so insanely happy; you can’t imagine what life could be like for you without them. It’s a happiness that fills the entirety of your being, from your toes, to every hair follicle on your scalp, to every ridge of your fingertips. Without even knowing it, you’ve given your heart completely to someone, something so much bigger than you could have ever dreamed. A thing called the first love.
I know exactly how you feel. I fell in love for the first time a little over a year ago. My heart has still not been able to silence it’s passion for this one that I love. But the one that captures my heart is not the usual kind. I cannot hold it in my hand or kiss it goodnight. I cannot spend hour upon hour talking to it or hearing a clever reply or calming laugh. I cannot look into
its eyes and have it gaze ever so lovingly back. These are all things that we see on the silver screen, things that we read about in books or even things we have experienced ourselves. But for me, my love is of a different nature completely. As of today, I am not even sure they know I exist.
Though we haven’t yet had the opportunity to meet in person, I cannot deny that my heart beats in a way it did not before. My head sores with the thought of it. My feet ache for the chance to run to it, arms open, ready to embrace the one that I have come to love so dearly. And in 1 day, I will finally be able to. I have my plane tickets, I have my passport. My clothes are all packed, and my goodbyes have almost all been said. You might ask, how all of this is possible and I am not sure that I should be the one to tell you, for I am not any more certain than you. All I know is that, for the first time in my life, the Spirit has called me, and I have not once looked back in anxiety. I have not questioned or hesitated. I have simply accepted the love that was put into me, the heartwarming and heartbreaking love for the country of India.