Friday, July 2, 2010

My box of prayers

Since reading the book Redeeming love, i made a prayer box. In this book i put all of my prayers; the ailly, the insane, the achievable, and the deepest desires of my heart, all of them. When they go into the box, i give them completely to God and let Him handle them the way He sees fit. Beofre i put them in, i date them so that i know how long it takes God to answer them, or not answer them depending. I've put a lot of my heart into that box, having faith that God would answer my prayers and grant me the desires of my heart. My bible verse throughout this has been from Psalm 115:90 "My comfort in my suffereing is this; your promise preserves my life". and it has been true in so many way. Some of my prayers have not been answered yet, like what i should do concerning a realtionship with a guy, a closer bond with my family, and letting go of certain things and people i've been holding on to. But some of my prayers ahve been answered. My self esteem has never been better. I've never felt more at peace in all my life. I physically heard God speak to me right after my graduation. But God's not ok with that. he takes it one step further. The week that my best friend was going to europe, she was waiting on a camera, worried that it wouldnt make it to her house in time. I went to her house to talk with her and her family, but before i stepped inside the house, i wrote down a prayer, dated it and put it in the prayer box. It said that i wanted Anne's camera to come before she had to leave for Europe. Not an hour later, she looked outside her door and her camera was on the doorstep. In less than an hour. and then today...the greatest of His answers to date. Recently my grandmother lost her job. We were both worried about what would happen financially especially with me going to college in the fall. But God has provided so much for us. he has given us money, coming from the most random places, and my grandmother and i have both had our worries eased. But college was still a big burden on both of our shoulders. One of the very first prayers i put in the box was money for college. I prayed to God "somehow, someway. please give us the money.
Today i got a letter in the mail for Anderson. It was my financial aid packet. It said that my total aid was $34,150.00 for my freshmen year. Anderson is just over $32,000 for both room and board per year. I got down on my knees and prayed to the God who has always been there for me. His promises exceed all that i could ask for. I am truly overwhelmed by it all. But God...oh God..thank you so much!